Emerson had been struggling with bouts of depression, off and on for the past 10 years, but much more in the recent months. Rather than having a few down days every month, it turned into only a couple of days between the down times.

He clearly needed help! Dr. Mark Ritchie conducted a thorough evaluation. With both dismay and exhilaration, Em was diagnosed as having “cyclical depression” caused by a chemical imbalance in his body. As it turned out, the medication was mild, alleviating the down times and enhancing his overall resilience and optimism. Once stabilized, his creativity soared and our life became totally different.

Music

Lyrics

Help me, help me save my life
I cry looking down
From a frightening narrow ledge
Where I stand far above the ground
Will you catch me if I fall
Hurry, the flames are getting close
They burn my eyes and take my breath
I can hardly see or breathe
Hardly see, barely breathe

Help me, help me save my life
It seems so far
I’m not sure just where I’ll land
I don’t know exactly where you are
Can you tell me that I will
Survive the fall and be okay
Or will I tear apart, simply break
Into pieces on the ground
Scattered all around

All the while the night is balmy
Crystal clear beyond the fire
Through the dense smoke I imagine
Distant city lights flicker, burning bright

Even though my world seems fragile
I know that there is another one
Where there are no fires
No more fire

Help me, help me save my life
I’m letting go
Soon I’ll fly just like a bird
As I soar on wings of hope
Into waiting open arms
That will bring me down to earth
Tears burn my eyes and take my breath
I can finally see and breathe
I can see
When you help me help me
I can finally breathe

Credits

From After All, track released September 1, 2008
Cheryl Martlage – Lyrics, vocals and production
Emerson Martlage – Music, guitar, vocals and production
Mr Toad’s San Francisco – Mastering
Dr. Mark Ritchie – Inspiration